Monday, December 15, 2008

mi viejo

last december we went home and spent a week or so in punta del diablo with my dad. we talked a lot sitting by the ocean. franco took lots of pictures. i didn't know they were going to be the last ones together. he passed away last friday, and the pain is so unbearable and so so so bad.
i hope time will make it better. in the meantime, i'll keep remembering lo buena gente que era, un tipo solidario, amigo, querido por tantos.
i know it's a sad post, but maybe it'll be useful somehow. i always thought he was going to live forever. i wish we'd talked even more, i wish we spent more time together, i just wish i could go back in time and tell him so much stuff, and i can't. maybe you still can, and you should.


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I have lost a grandparent this year so I know how it feels.

  2. I'm so so sorry, Ana. I don't have any words for you, but am sending wishes for fast healing and acceptance. Take care, be good to yourself.

  3. I think when you look back at these pictures, it makes the memories so much stronger. Your Dad will always be with you, it must be such a sad time for you - you are in our prayers, Esther x

  4. My deepest condolences. That picture is absolutely wonderful. No words need to be said.
    I just want you to know that you are an inspiration to me. I am new at Amigurumi and I worship your site. I even bought your book.

    Stay strong and know that he loves you and am very proud of you.

  5. I'm so sorry Ana, I'm glad you have happy memories to comfort you.

  6. thinking of you, i know it's oh so hard... you think you can never get over it, but you always do... and what remains in the heart is no longer the sadness but the fondness and the beautiful memories.

    sending you some warm hugs from sweden (found your book in ny this autumn and am now crazy about doing the sweet little animals)

  7. Hello- I am so sorry that you have to go through such pain. My Dad passed away in 1995, and I still miss him so much. I will always wish it could be different. The pain does not go away, it just gets duller. It does get easier to breathe. You never get over such a loss, you get through it with love. You are in my thoughts.

  8. Ana, I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family <3

  9. Anna, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my father 8 years ago and I still miss him very much. I lost my father-in-law (we were very very close) in April and I miss him terribly as well.

    There will be many many things that remind you of him over the days, weeks, months and years to follow that will still bring sweet tears to your eyes. Treasure those moments for he is with you spirit and will live on forever in your heart!!!!

    Much love and HUGS!!!!!!

  10. I am so sorry, my great grandma died a couple of years ago. Just to let you know you book is amazing my crocheting friends and I love it!

  11. Ana, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. My condolences to you and your family.

  12. I am very sorry to hear of your loss..please know that he is watching over you all, and as proud of you as we all are.

    Best wishes from our family to yours, and warm hugs.


  13. I am so very sorry for your loss. My dad is visiting this christmas (and has been in ill health) I will definitely heed your advice. Again so very sorry.

  14. I am so sorry for your loss. I know time does make it better. One just never knows how much time. One thing for sure if it weren't for our children in our lives life would be much harder. Kids are our blessing and make things much easier to bear.

  15. So sorry to hear of your loss.
    I hope that you're feeling a bit better now.


  16. oh, im so sorry!! hope you feel better soon!!


  17. Ana Paula, My deep regrets on your father's passing. I have dealth with loss (my 4-year-old son, seven years ago), and I know how acute the pain can be. I will keep you in my thoughts. How wonderful that you were able to spend those precious days with him.

    It is for my little girl, Sakura, that I happily bought your book yesterday, and I just shared it with some friends on Facebook (and posted your site on my page). I was looking for a way to use leftover yarn, and fell in love with your little creations.

    Is your name Brasilian? My name Jinji is an phoneticized spelling of the song "Dindi" by Jobim.

    Much love to you,
    Jinji in Austin TX

    Much love to you

  18. Dear Ana,
    We don't know each other but I wanted to tell you how very sorry I was to hear your news. I am sending you strength and hugs, all the way from Amsterdam.

    My little girl Rose (4) says thank for all of the dollys. I have your book and am slowly working my through - well, all of them, actually! (She is fascinated by all of the pictures and she has picted the lion for my next project).

    But crochet aside... hug your babies, and revel in the good momories, and let the pain come.

    Holly x

  19. I lost my mother a little over a year ago suddenly. I did not get to say goodbye. I would not wish that pain on anyone. She was only 43. I miss her deeply. It is not as painful now but you do get to where you can think of them without cring. I am so sorry you have to go through this. My prayers will be with you.

  20. I'm very sorry, Ana. I don't know what I'd do if I lost my Dad. I'll pray for you ;)

  21. I am so sorry Ana for your loss...

  22. Ana,

    I am so sorry for your loss. You can see from the photo posted what a special closeness you and your father shared. At times it feels that the sorrow will not let up, but with time, instead of just tears, you will be able to reflect on his life and the special moments that you shared. You'll be able to laugh about good and times and remember the special part that he had in your life. I lost both of my parents some time ago, when I was in my mid-30's. I still cry, but believe that God has prepared a better place for them and that really encourages me when I feel sad. I pray for comfort for you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  23. Ana:

    Lo siento mucho. Queda el recuerdo de los momentos vividos juntos. Eso hará que de alguna manera siga vivo.

    Saludos desde México.


  24. such a moving post. I am VERY close to my dad but rarely see him b/c of my mother. It makes it hard on us all, especially the grandchildren.
    I will call him tomorrow are right to use time wisely.

  25. Many condolences to you and your family at this time. May God bless you and may you feel his presence with you during your grieving and may your father's journey to Heaven be a short and fast one!

  26. Lo siento mucho Ana :[ Pero mira como es la vida, te dio la oportunidad de volverlo a ver y a platicar con el en persona antes de morir. Asi le paso a mi mama, viviamos 6 horas aparte de mis abuelos, y un viaje a verlos surgio derrepente. Pero unos dias despues mi abuelito fallecio.

    El tiempo lo cura todo. Espero que estes muy bien pronto :]

  27. Ana Paula,
    May the memories of times with your dad comfort you and heal your heart. I lost my dad(thatha), over 20 years ago and it's those memories that have brought me comfort. Move past the could of, should ofs and just remember what you did share with your dad.
    Paryers and hugs for you and your family,


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